Jetsabel.

WOO HOO!

2008-03-11T22:04:33Z

I got a new job!!
Good Money.
Good Hours.
Oh hell yeah.

ill_rescue_you @ 2007-11-12T21:40:00

2007-11-13T02:44:56Z

Update?
Okay.
Lets see.
Work still sucks, but im dealing.
Working on moving.
Wooo hooooo.
My girls great, the kids are too.
If you have an opinion, please leave it minimally or contact me on myspace, message wise. Im updating, not looking for put downs.
Thank you.
Court TOmorrow, wish me luck.

ill_rescue_you @ 2007-10-21T11:09:00

2007-10-21T15:17:34Z

hey.
If anyone knows of a job I can get , let me know, cos I cant really stand mine much anymore. THeres just a bunch of assholes workin there besides a select few. BEsides the fact that my job sucks, everything else is fine. I just thought Id give a quick update to those who still read. Well, Um, I thought I had a little more to say, but for now, I guess that thats all. so Ill be on my merry way. Oh and to all my friends who are battling that upper respitory infection, keep drugging yourselves up with medicine, and lots of sleep. Good luck.

ill_rescue_you @ 2007-10-09T11:19:00

2007-10-09T15:24:48Z

Haha. Well, where should I start?
Im miost definately livin the life.Im completey staisfied with where I am in life, and to say the least, its the gods honest truth. Everything has stayed pretty steady. Work sucks, but whats new? Um, So, Im happy. Haha. Really happy. Can you believe it? Im still trying to get used to it. Once I can get better pictures and this and that Ill post some pictures of my awesome family life and my pocket watch. Yeah, my girl got me a gorgeuos pocket watch. I feel too cool for anything haha. For wheover still reads this, I just wanted let everyone know that Im doing really well and hope that the rest can say the same.
<3<3<3

ill_rescue_you @ 2007-08-24T13:23:00

2007-08-24T17:23:34Z

I leave for Philly tonight at 5:30

ill_rescue_you @ 2007-07-08T23:32:00

2007-07-09T03:36:00Z

I wanna start writing a new chapter.
Who wants to be a part of it?

ill_rescue_you @ 2007-06-21T01:04:00

2007-06-21T05:04:32Z

I want out now.

Games Over.

ill_rescue_you @ 2007-05-12T11:44:00

2007-05-12T15:45:08Z

Well.
I have a car.
I have two jobs.
I graduate in 4 weeks.
I leave for College.
And I never want to see this town again.

ill_rescue_you @ 2007-04-16T15:35:00

2007-04-16T19:35:57Z

You will learn to listen to me someday.
But that day might be too late.

To The Left To The Left

2007-04-15T13:24:34Z

You must not know about me
You must not know about me
I could have another you in a minute
matter fact he'll be here in a minute - baby

You must not know about me
You must not know about me
I can have another you by tomorrow
So don't you ever for a second get to thinking you're irreplaceable
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Everything happeneds so fast.
My whole entire life crashed and got built back up in a Spring Breaks time.
Im thankful.
I hope she can trust me enough to give me another shot.
I hope the rest of my....aquaintaces, get where they are going. safely.
I cant wait until the fall,
I start college, Erin will be there.
A whole new chapter starts. New people. New friends. New life.
Thank God.
Im excited. Lets just see how the summer goes.
Im sure it will be fine.

ill_rescue_you @ 2007-04-07T21:10:00

2007-04-08T01:12:33Z

Im looking at you.
Staring at you.
You can feel it.
You are getting uncomfortable.
Keep the smile.
Its the safest way.
I stare as hard as I can to see through you.
Smiling.
Staring.
Loving.
Loathing.
Is it a game?
Cos I think Im getting good.
It seems somewhat familiar.
Drama.
Here it comes.
I can feel it.
Its that certain feeling in my back.
My spine.
Surprise motherfuckers.
No, I wasnt talking to you.
A and B conversation.
Get it?
Indirect.
Unecessary roughness.
Defense.
Block.
Take down.

ill_rescue_you @ 2006-12-04T21:15:00

2006-12-05T01:15:12Z

I got a new kitten.
I cut my hand really bad on a kitty food can.
My car is getting ready to break again I think.
Im STILL waiting to start this job that I supposedly got hired at. (No idea.)
Woodstock is my new town to walk around in.

**Main Focus:**
Wait patiently for June to approach
Keep up in school
Do whatever the hell I want
Make lots of money so I can leave ASAP.
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Yeah...thats pretty much it. Its not much. but its something. Its just so lonely without Kai:[ :[ :[
Im still kickin though.

ill_rescue_you @ 2006-12-01T15:10:00

2006-12-01T19:10:14Z

This is a better idea than I had thought. A whole night of sleep is my next step. Hell yeah.
I think Im going the rigtway this time. I need to spend some time with my mother and then I will become exactly what Ive always wanted. Free. I cant wait.
School is going awesome. I can actually stnd being there now. Is something to do. There are people to see. A place to keep me busy and I find myself asking for homework so I can study. Thats pretty much al I have to do now. Go to school early, enjoy my four hours, study, and chill. Get in my car and I can relax for the rest of the day. Ge wherever Im going at that point, do whateve school work I have, and then moveo n with the rest of my day with no plans and no worries. It really quite cool. Once work gets started Ill be able to have 4 hours of school, 4 hours of relax and study time, and then 6 hours of work. Its pretty cool.
I guess I can take a small sigh of relief now.
I still have lots of conflicts to get past. I cant tell right now whats going to happen, but Im sure that soon enough time will tell. You cant always trust your gut feelings. I notice that now. I wish I had known sooner. Oh well. I cant dwell over the past anymore. Everything is happening for a reason, and frankly, Im not afraid of that anymore. I wont try and pull back the past and fix things. Its not worth it. I just have to accept the fact that things cant stay perfect forever. And its okay to accept that. It might hurt a little bit, but if it doesnt kill you...keep truckin. do whatever it takes to keep your head up. Maybe the future will bring what some people call "an enlightenment" Or whatever word you might use. Im just not going to worry all THAT much anymore. Finishing school is all I care about. and then off to college. I cant decide how much to the truth to tell about my college experiance. Frankly, Its no ones business but mine and i just choose to share sometimes. I dont think Ill share too much. Its my own secret. Mwahahaha. Well.
I need to get off the computer. Government test on Tuesday. Math test on Monday. Acing finals are coming up.. Woo hoo. Im going for a 95 overll this semester. I think I can totally do it.

To All My 'Friends';

2006-11-15T01:52:52Z

Im okay.
Im fine.
Im sane.

ill_rescue_you @ 2006-11-14T19:54:00

2006-11-14T23:54:30Z

Remember how you found the key,..

Im taking my life apart brick by brick, I need a little new cement, Im starting to fall apart.

ill_rescue_you @ 2006-11-14T10:24:00

2006-11-14T14:24:31Z

I’m not going to give you another excuse to shoot me down,
I’m nothing close to perfect but far enough away from sane.
Going crazy is just another game I play,
Or at least that’s what I thought.
If I could settle down a thousand miles from now,
I wouldn’t be able to laugh at my own mistakes.
Here’s a song dedicated to being all about me,
Or maybe a the way I feel about you..
Spare me another night of laying in bed,
Trying to figure out what made me kill me instead,
Of thriving for one more, just one more invite,
To a party close to your heart and my mind
Relax just a little for what we call time,
Its just a number line waiting for you to expire.

Ive been writing a lot lately.
But it hardly seems like Im getting anywhere.

ill_rescue_you @ 2006-11-14T10:12:00

2006-11-14T14:12:43Z

Dude, I want to move.
I want to get out of here.
I want to live an hour and a half away from this shit hole.
I hardly like anyone in it anymore.
I can give you 5 maybe 7 names off the top of my head of people that I can stand.
Thats it.
Highschool is holding me here.
Thats all.
Hell, if I had a car that wouldnt break every two fucking seconds, Id be gone.
Fuck this place.
Yeah I hate liars.
I hate hypcrites.
I hate fake assholes.
Drugs kept me from killing everyone.
Now that Ive gotta sober up,
What comes next?
Only you can tell that story.

These people are going to be the death of me.

ill_rescue_you @ 2006-11-13T10:12:00

2006-11-13T14:12:39Z

I want to write a new song ladies and gentlement. One thats almost close to happy. Do you realize that I went COMPLETELY backwards? Funny that. So Im feeling really good today. I had a really rough night. Manda. Sorry. You know what for. You were right, I just needed to sleep. I didnt sleep much this weekend. ( I just totally got myself a free pass to do whatever I want in the comptuer lab! MWHAHA )Goodness. Mandar,... If you read this, Im gonna call you when I get out. Ill apologize in person, since Im a big dick anyway.I just want to keep friends. Damn it. I dont know why I freak out. I need to accept NORMAL stuff that happeneds. Being friends with ex's is not a bad thing to do. And I need to not be jealous about dumb shit. Blah. I need to get my priorities in order again. OOOh. I love The Spill Canvas like nothing else!!
"And all at once it became clear to me,
that you're allergic to honesty
And you don't even have a friend around
And so my lust is just convenient now"

Yeah. Im gonna go. But I want to fix the way I think without professional help. If you know what I mean. haha.

ill_rescue_you @ 2006-11-12T12:38:00

2006-11-12T16:38:52Z

Just get far far away from me; I dont want your disease.
Please dont make me cry....Im just like you I know you know, Im just like you so lave me alone.

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Gees. So where to start? What do I say? Lets see. I guess it about time for a real livejournal entry. I never get any comments or any help so I dont see why Im even bothering. Well, I wont say never, But not many I guess.
I m sitting here rockin' out to Eisley and wondering where all of my pride went. I just...dont care anymore. I just, I started doing a lot of drugs, and drinking lots of alcohol.. Why? I dont know. I want to get away from something. Somehow. I lost the best girlfriend Ive had in a long time. Im sorry if that hurts anyone...but its the truth. Lets see.. How can I put this? I want to get out of here, but at the same time I dont. I think I need to get out of here....soon. As soon as highschools over I gotta go somewhere. So much has happened in the past couple of months. I want someone to jump up and tell me what to do. I mean, I know that that is never going to happen, so I wont hold my breath. I want to take back the last few months. Atleast if at all, the last month. ... Nevermind. I dont even want anyone reading this. If you really wanna talk to me, you are important enough to have my number.

ill_rescue_you @ 2006-10-06T12:15:00

2006-10-06T16:17:04Z

So Ill drive so fucking far away that I never cross your mind and do whatever it takes in your heart to leave me behind.

Dude....
Fuck you.

ill_rescue_you @ 2006-10-06T12:09:00

2006-10-06T16:09:53Z

YOUR AN ASSHOLE
Truely
With fucking love, really.

ill_rescue_you @ 2006-10-02T16:11:00

2006-10-02T20:14:40Z

i good you bid evening

and this girl drives me crazy.

man oh man. Why is Liberty so far away?

i love her and i want everyone to hear it

ill_rescue_you @ 2006-09-09T10:54:00

2006-09-09T14:45:46Z

Here! So IVE GOT SOMETHING FOR YOU!

FUCK YOU

ill_rescue_you @ 2006-07-05T08:45:00

2006-07-05T12:45:42Z

Fuck the 4th of July.
Drunk should be my constant state of mind.

WIll your love keep burning baby.

2006-06-21T15:29:20Z

Now Im up from below..

Such a brilliant star you are.

Do
Do You
Do you Know
Do you know how long Ive waited,
To look up from below just to find someone like you.

I think I might just trust you maybe but Im not sure, Im not sure I wanna know.

God I love old school everything.